Thursday, March 7, 2013

Responsibility While Drinking

I was starting to write a new post on the Pop-Up Cocktail party hosted by Good Spirits a few weeks ago. While I was eagerly writing the post and looking at the pictures of the spirits and cocktails that I consumed, I started to feel a little uneasy. Where a few days after the event I was amused with having consumed around 27 little (some not so little) tastes, writing the post put things in perspective. I was going overboard with this Sisco Vanilla persona. I'll probably write and publish the post, but in order to do so I needed to take a few steps back.

Drinking the way I did that night is not what I want to do with this blog. I like highlighting cocktails and the historical background (if any) with cocktails and spirits and my behavior did not reflect that. Looking back at pictures I took while at the bar afterwards was just disheartening. To quote my own terminology: I WAS DONE. There is nothing amusing with a grown man being that drunk at 10pm (or anytime for that matter). It is downright embarrassing. It is something that needs to stop. Hence why I have not written and posted anything since then and I stopped drinking for a week.

I see how some patrons look at while I'm at work and how some drinkers look when I'm riding home after work. Disheveled, crying, smelling, emaciated, gaunt, unconscious of their surroundings and I can go on and on with the descriptions. That's not me. That's not who I am. That's not who I want to become. I have responsibilities not only to my family and my job but to myself. It is time to act responsibly.

You'll find that it may take me a little while longer to get back to posting at a regular routine. When I do, I promise to do so in a responsible manner that I'll feel comfortable with. I'm not here to advocate binge drinking or reckless behavior which means that I have to set the standard and not do it myself.

Sisco Vanilla